Reading for Martha
Martha calls in about love – General reading – the gift card, you killed lady luck and teamwork. Some of the things that happen to you may be due to karma debt. Teamwork may indicate a matchmaker situation coming up for you. Why can’t I have a relationship, what is wrong? You’re 22 and have you had boyfriends before? I kind of ruin it. So when a guy shows real interest you get bored and get out. How did you ruin the relationship with the guy you like? I went out with his best friend. I can’t figure out why I ruin everything. I’m definitely happy right now. I have a lot of friends and I’m in school, everything is going good now. I want to graduate from college and go to law school. You have a multi-layer barrier around you that you personally put up. You are the biggest influence on your life.
What was our question? Why do you sabotage your relationships? The lottery, FML and the difficult choice. So the lottery card is winning big, everything you want and that is kind of scary. When you have everything that is when you are the most vulnerable. The FML card is the regret you feel when you sabotage your relationships. You punish yourself hard. There’s a lot of torment, the difficult choice. Have you had any major loss? My grandfather was murdered when I was 8 years old. My mom has PTSD from that. He was murdered during a home invasion. I felt like everything went wrong in our life but I feel like I’ve moved on from that. You were quite attached to your grandfather and when he was torn away you were left with the fear of getting close to someone. I’ve never even associated that before. It is still affecting you. You need to really let go of that fear. If you can see the pattern and break the cycle now it’s better than coming to that realization at 40. You will lose things again, that’s part of life but if you never let things or people in that’s not really living. If you let your mind wander there are many things that could happen to you. You can’t change the past but you can course correct. You’re trying to work through behaviors. Keep a relationship diary and reflect and correct yourself.
The Judge Neil Show
Upcoming relationship read – First guy: smelly vagina, bipolar; Second guy: the mountain and the thong; third guy: rain and it hurts when I pee the STD card; fourth guy: shit and the Judge Neil card. First guy will look good at first, calm then hot temper get rid of him quick. If a guy is good then I throw him out, I don’t know why. Second guy represents a climb up Mount Everest a major accomplishment when you get to the top and he’s sexy and the relationship will be good. He’s probably good looking, busy and hard to get to know. Maybe he’s a law student and really busy but when you do spend time its fun and sexy. That relationship can go somewhere. Third guy pretty bad cards. It doesn’t mean you’ll get a std but it’s disappointing. Depressing kind of goth energy and you’ll be attracted to him. Yeah I’m attracted to people who are mean to me. The Forth guy will totally annoy you when you meet him but he could be everything to you and the perfect relationship if you give it a chance. Is he too good and kind of stuck up? I’m getting like kind of an asshole kind of energy but he’s a good guy. You’ll be in each other’s space and there will be a window of opportunity. Not like either of you will pursue the other but maybe a classmate kind of situation or some kind of forced shared space situation.
What relationships do you look up to that you see people in? What kind of relationship do you want. I want to be attracted to the person. What kind of relationship do you want would you want someone who works 60 hours a week? When you date someone, you really need to evaluate the person and determine if you can be with them forever and happy. When you date, this is your homework. Unless their bad have more than one date, a week or two keep a log and evaluate and review and see what kind of guys make you happy and what kind of traits do you want. Have fun with it.
Suffer through a boring relationship for a little while. It’s like when you try asparagus at first you don’t like it but you eventually acquire a taste for it.
Card 01 - Crabs
The crabs represent an irritation. Usually crabs don’t go away on their own so there is something you need to do to get rid of them. If the crabs are pulled for a person you should probably get them out of your life, but crabs can be a person, relationship, or even a job.